I Finally Realized Why I Haven't Been Writing Lately
And it's not laziness!
Well, not just laziness.
I am maxed out on personal training clients at work right now and my empath tendencies are in overdrive. I am worn out from putting all my energy into helping other people that I don't have enough left over energy for myself.
I love my personal training clients and all my class members. I truly do. But I also genuinely care about them. So when they are hurting, I am hurting. When they are struggling, I am struggling to help them. My job, both when training, teaching and as a wellness coordinator is a sort of cheerleader. I need to smile and encourage everyone all day long.
All. Day. Long.
Factor in I often work split shifts, usually 8-2 and then again 4-8, and they make for long days.
So I'm more than a little tired by the time I get home at night.
Well duh. I go through this periodically.
Work a lot - write hardly at all.
Work a little - write like crazy.
It's a crappy balancing act with no balance at all.
It's good that I'm working a lot right now. I need to keep that up. But I also need to balance it out with some self care and some me time. Which, of course, includes writing. I know if I look back through this blog I have written many times about that delicate balancing act.
And, after all this time, I still haven't figured it out.
This post is a part of the Insecure Writer's Support Group, a monthly meeting of writers who over think, under write and just want people to like them.